Saturday, January 31, 2015

A Negative for a Postive


It's not a secret that I'm definitely a pessimist, someone who finds a negative in everything, who sees life in a negative way, a negative norman... you get the idea. Let's just say, I would be Eeyore if I were ever likened to a character. I find it so difficult to find a positive attribute in most situations and it's so much easier to be negative than positive, I find. I thought I would give myself an exercise of finding a negative and turning it in to a positive. Here we go...

+ I didn't get in to drama school: I found a new career pathAt first I really had no idea what I was going to do, I didn't think I was going to end up doing anything and felt as if I was going to be drifting through life. Having not gotten in to drama school, led me to finding a job in the beauty industry and ended up with me realising, I was super interested in marketing. This led me to to apply for a degree in 'Fashion Marketing' and currently have three interviews and one offer so far. I would never in a million years thought I would be studying this course at university, it's even made me think about doing a masters! It doesn't mean that my love for acting has vanished, it's still there, but it's shown me that I am capable of other things and that I can pursue my career in acting in various ways, not just through drama school. 

+ Went through an awful breakup: I have an amazing relationship now At the time, I felt like I was going to never fall in love with anyone again and that all men were un-trustworthy, I also felt as if it was all my fault - wrong. Looking back, I am so happy that I'm out of that situation and I know that it was a two way thing. Despite the fact that it has left me scarred and has caused me to create a wall about certain matters, I'm thankful that I've learnt from the experience and changed because of it. Also, I wouldn't be in the relationship i'm in now if it weren't for the break up! Yay! I couldn't be more happy than I am with Rupert and it feels as if it gets better every day that passes, which is crazy as we're three years in. I'm not going to get mushy, but the relationship I'm in now, so totally outweighs the relationship before making the breakup seem like a complete favour (doesn't mean it didn't hurt at the time though). 

+ Left private school: made some amazing life long friends When my dad sat me down and told me I was leaving my private school to go to sixth form college, I was devastated. I didn't think I was going to be happy anywhere else and I really didn't want to leave my friends. What I didn't realise at the time, was that I was going to meet the bestest people who were going to become life long friends. Going to sixth form college was incredible, I got to meet new people, meet different teachers and be in a completely new setting. I loved it and I'm not a big supporter of change. It also proved who were my real friends from my private school as it meant that effort had to be put in to the relationships, some couldn't handle it, hey ho. If I hadn't gone to sixth form, I wouldn't have met Rupert, or any of my current best friends who I constantly talk to and see as much as I can. 

+ I suck at maths, science and DT: I'm pretty good at english, classics and frenchThis is simple, because I'm awful at those subjects, it then led me to believe that I was terrible at everything. How ridiculous! I've realised that because I'm not very good at the things that require the left-hand side of my brain, it just means that I'm capable of other things. So what, I had to try even harder to work out some pythagorus theory or what chemical does what stuff to the atom and even try and sand some wood to create a table. I know that I can totally ace analysing an english literature book, or telling you who did what in ancient Rome or Egypt and even recite to you what I had for lunch in french. I'm good at some things but not others, and that's ok. It's ok not to be good at everything, you gotta leave some stuff to other people too!

I need to remember or think that there is always a positive to a negative, a silver lining to every cloud and so on and so forth. Without some of the negative things that happened in my life, it wouldn't make me the person I am now and I quite like who I am at the moment, thank you! 

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  1. Natasha Jacobsen31 January 2015 at 09:37

    Wow, very inspirational! Great blog post :)

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  2. I'm a pessimist also. I'm going to start doing this to help me think more positive!

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  3. It's such a great way to put everything in to perspective! x

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